Let’s Talk About Waking Up

A Fellowship of Divine Humans

Soul Talk

Let’s Talk About Waking Up

Channeled by John McCurdy

This transcript has been lightly edited from the original recording to ensure that the intended meaning is conveyed as clearly as possible. Note that Hmm, Mmm, Ahh, and lines with just a dot signify places to pause, and to feel into yourself and what is being said. Comments in [square brackets] are editorial explanations rather than part of the message.

I am that I am!

John, of Magical Service. Otherwise known as John’s Divinity, or John’s Soul.

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Let’s talk about waking up. Waking up to your own divinity.

Many of you have already had experiences of waking up, but it is not just a momentary thing. Oh, sometimes you have a moment that is profound and enlightening and that makes you realize you are so much more than this human, but the truth is that it is an ongoing process.

And you are among the first to actually do it here on Earth.

Oh, there are many ascended masters, as you call them. Those are simply the beings who have gone before you, who have woken up. The difference is that, for the most part, when they woke up they left. They left the human body behind. Or in some cases, they vaporized it and took its essence with them.

Not the body itself, for that only works here on Earth. There is no other place in all of creation where this particular body functions.

But they took its essence and they left the planet, because it was easier and because the energies here were not ready. The consciousness on this planet was not ready to deal with a divine human walking around on Earth.

Or should we say—because you are all divine humans—that in particular we mean the ones who have remembered their divinity and who are embodying their divinity while remaining here on Earth.

And that is a difficult thing, dear friend. A truly difficult thing.

And, it is such an incredible, amazing thing!

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You see, for so many lifetimes, you forgot who you were. Your soul, you could say, your divinity, stayed behind, in a certain sense.

We are speaking in metaphors, so don’t take it too literally. Don’t try to analyze the facts and the figures and every single word we say, because you will miss the point. Just feel.

We are speaking in metaphors because that is the best we can do in human language.

So your soul stayed behind, in a certain sense. You could even say it went to sleep. It stayed behind in order to hold the cord for you, so to speak, to anchor you, so that you couldn’t get lost.

But of course you had to forget that as you went off on your journey, because otherwise it would be a totally different experience if you knew that you couldn’t get lost. If you knew that it was all going to work out it would have been a whole different experience, and you would not have discovered nearly as much about yourself. So, as part of the agreement when this place called Earth was set up, when you came here you lost your memory.

Or rather, you left it behind. It’s still there, every bit of it, and once again it is becoming available to you now.

But you left it behind. You came to Earth. You embodied into a body, a little baby that was born.

Many of your early lifetimes were very short.

And then, when that body failed for whatever reason—it wore out, or it got killed, or whatever happened—you would pop back out. But even then you did not fully remember who you were, because you stayed within this Earth environment, you could say, the Earth consciousness.

Oh, our words fail us so often…

You stayed close to Earth, and even in those places between lifetimes you didn’t fully remember who you are. And that was by design.

Then you would come back in, pop into another body, another little baby, and you would grow up and go through that lifetime. And you did that over and over again.

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And you went through so many beautiful adventures!

Oh, many times the human didn’t think they were so beautiful, but your soul did. Your soul could see the bigger picture as it watched you, and it gathered the wisdom. So much wisdom came from every single one of those experiences!

You would go through them, you would die and come back to the non-physical realms,
still remaining close to Earth, and your soul would gather the wisdom from that lifetime and distill it into this… Oh, it’s been called this golden nectar, better than honey! This beautiful wisdom, the nectar of wisdom! And your soul has stored up that wisdom from every lifetime and every experience you have ever had.

Well, you went through so many experiences, and you have been here so many times. Some of you who were among the first to come in have been here more than two thousand lifetimes.

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We are trying to get John to trust the number that he feels enough to say it.

One thousand, eight hundred and sixty-three, at least. And even that is him trying to qualify it!

One thousand, eight hundred and sixty-three lifetimes on Earth, for me, so far.

And indeed, this is the last lifetime like this. Oh, there will be other adventures in the future, other ways of coming to Earth, because everything is changing right now. And for so many of you this is your last regular human lifetime, the last time you will be stuck in your body until it dies. We are not going to get into explaining that right now, for it is still being discovered, but everything is changing.

So, here we are.

You went through so many experiences, some of you more, some of you much less. But you went through so many experiences, learning about yourself.

Oh, you thought you were here to accomplish something. Many of you thought you were here to atone for the sins of your ancestors, and what a ridiculous idea that is!

What loving being could possibly hold you responsible for the sins of your parents? It simply is not that way, dear friend.

There are not even any sins. There is just experience, and you have been through so many of them.

Oh yes, many times you were hurt. Many times you hurt others, or thought you did. But the truth is, no one has ever actually been hurt.

There are humans who have experienced pain, physical and emotional. You have experienced betrayal. You have experienced being killed, raped, tortured, and all these things.

But it was a momentary experience and it did not damage you.

You brought some of those energies with you into this lifetime so you could gather a little more wisdom from them, but they did not damage you. Ever! And you never damaged anybody else.

Because you are divinity, and you cannot be damaged. You are eternal, and you cannot die.

You can only pretend. You can pretend to be hurt, and you have done a very good job of that. And now it is time to let it go, because that is all it is.

It is a game. It is pretend.

You were never actually hurt.

It was a game you played, and now you can let it go. Whenever you are ready.

So, you went through all of these experiences, and your soul stayed in the background.

You call it this veil between you the human and the other realms, but it was simply an illusion created to help you forget.

Your soul was on the other side of that veil, in a manner of speaking. It’s you, and it was always right here, but there was this veil between you. Between your awareness and the awareness of your soul.

And so, eventually you reached a point where you and your soul agreed together: It is time. It’s time to wrap this up. And your soul said, “Okay, I’ll wake up now.”

And the funny thing is, it was never the human that needed to wake up! Ever. It was your soul. And now the time is here and your soul has woken up.

As that has happened, your human has begun to have a lot of new insights. It has begun to realize that it is so much more than the body that it has known, and it is still trying to understand that. Because, you see, the mind is a human thing. Understanding is a human thing, though it has become more than a human thing and it has brought a whole new kind of wisdom to your soul.

But now your soul is awake.

If you are here, if you are hearing us, your soul is awake. And now it is coming in. Yes, once again, it is already here. It has been here the whole time, but it’s a part of you that has been asleep in the background. Now it is awake. Now it is blending with your consciousness, with the human consciousness.

Your soul is… hmm, we’ll just use the human words: It is coming in to be with you here.

It couldn’t really do that in the past. Even the ascended masters couldn’t really do that, back then.

But now you can.

Your soul is joining you here, for the first time ever, in a certain sense. Your soul is joining into your life. It is blending with your human. It is bringing its perspective to you, the human. And that is confusing. It’s difficult, because your soul’s perspective is so much different.

Your soul sees the big picture, way beyond what the human can see, and that changes everything.

Your soul has entirely different priorities than the human has. The human is all about survival and accomplishing something, and feeling worthwhile. While from your soul’s perspective, you are the most worthwhile thing there is in all of its creation!

And you have never failed. You simply walked through experiences and learned about Self in ways that you the human can’t comprehend, and you brought that wisdom to your soul.

And you have never, ever, ever failed, in any way!

So now your soul brings that wisdom here to you, and that is what we call waking up.

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There are many stages.

There is that first glimmer: You read a book, or something happens, and suddenly you have a whole new awareness of life. You realize that you are so much more than you thought you were, and that is the first stage. Well, it’s an early stage, for there are many, many stages.

Then you start studying and reading and listening to teachers and learning more, at the human level, about who you are. And some of it is true and some of it is nonsense, but you go deeper and deeper. You feel more and more of your soul’s wisdom as it comes in and brings that wisdom into your awareness.

At some point the human goes, “Wow, this is amazing! I’m a creator! I’m the creator of my life, so let’s create all these cool things I’d like to have and fix all these problems that I have!”

But you see, the human is not so much the creator. It is the soul that creates.

And the soul looks at your life and smiles, and it says, “Well, we are actually doing something a little different here. We are bringing this journey to a close, slowly, and I am here to experience with you, not to change it all, though it is changing.”

As you go through this awakening process you start to experience magic in your life, in ways you never expected. Then you try to apply that to other parts of your life that feel like they are actually getting worse, and it doesn’t work so well.

Because, you see, as your soul brings its consciousness fully into your human consciousness, into your body, your body isn’t used to that. It starts going through all kinds of aches and pains, and you think it’s falling apart. And it hurts. And the human cries out, “What’s happening? Why does it hurt so much?”

Some of you run to the doctor. And the doctors diagnose you with all kinds of strange things, or else they can’t figure out anything. Others of you won’t go to the doctor, like John. Because he knows how powerful the doctor’s word is in his own human consciousness, and he doesn’t want to get locked into some diagnosis. And there is wisdom in that.

[Note: This is not medical advice. You must use your own discernment and feel what is appropriate for you.]

You see, what’s really happening is that your body is changing. It is dying, in a sense, but without going through a normal death process. It is changing, and parts of it are falling away.

You’ve heard of the light body. You could say it’s this energetic template that actually holds the atoms of your body together and gives it its form and shape. And you have heard that the light body is coming in now. But the funny thing is, it has always been here!

And now, as your divinity comes in and blends its consciousness with yours, all the parts of that template—that form that you gave your body so long ago—all the parts that no longer serve you are falling away and disintegrating. And that leads to aches and pains and all kinds of strange things in your body, all while you are still projecting an image of the body that people recognize as you.

Because part of this process is to go through the transformation without freaking out too many people who are not ready for theirs yet, so you need to maintain this familiar human image while going through this transformation. And that hurts.

It is a painful, difficult, scary process for the human, but that is what so many of you are going through.

Others of you are just coming into this process, this awakening, and are just becoming aware of your divinity. And part of you is going, “Do I really want to do this? Why would I go through this awakening if it hurts so much?”

Well, if you can ask that question, then maybe you should turn off this video or stop reading this, roll over in your metaphorical bed, and go back to sleep. You’ll be a lot happier, at least for the time being, and you can put off the process for a while.

It’s like waking up in the morning. You’re off in your dreams at night having a good time or a bad time or whatever, and then you start to wake up. And, especially if it’s a good dream you go, “Wait! No, I don’t want to wake up yet!” And you roll over and try to go back to sleep.”

Sometimes it works, for a little while. But sooner or later you start to wake up, and you cannot stop it. You try to hold on to that incredible dream you were having, and you feel it slip away. And then you are awake and there isn’t anything you can do about it, because you just can’t go back to sleep at that point.

Well, that’s how this is.

There is this funny word, “Woke,” that’s going around right now. It has become a dirty word in some parts of your society, and this is why.

“Woke” means awake. It means someone who is beginning to wake up, someone who has started to become aware of life, of humanity, of things like racism and all the ways that people abuse each other.

Yes, it’s only one little step along the way, but that’s what it means. It means waking up. Someone who is “woke” has begun to wake up, and there are all those other people watching and going, “Wait, I don’t want to wake up yet! I really don’t want to wake up now!” And so they become completely—sometimes rabidly—against anything that has to do with being “woke.”

These people know that waking up is a difficult thing, and they are really enjoying their games right now, especially their power games. And they don’t want to stop, so they are trying really hard to stop the “woke” people. And it doesn’t work. It doesn’t work any more than trying to keep someone from waking up in the morning. It’s impossible.

So here you are, waking up. And if you still have that question, “Why would I want to wake up?” Well, try to go back to sleep. You don’t need to wake up right now, unless it is your time. And if it is your time, then you cannot stop it.

This is not like the Christians and so many others, who think they have to convert everybody and save everybody. Life is not like that at all!

Every human, every angel, has their own path to their divinity. And they will get there, every single one, in their own way and in their own time, so there is no urgency about waking up.

Some of you look around at the world and think, “Well, if we don’t wake these people up soon, the world is going to destroy itself!”

Well, that is because you have not fully woken up yet. You have not fully realized the nature of reality.

This world is not going to destroy itself. Oh, in some version of reality maybe it will. But it doesn’t matter, because this world is not here to perpetuate itself. It is here to give you a playground to discover yourself in, and you have already done that.

Oh, there are many, many others who are still in the process, and they will create whatever they need and whatever they choose for discovering themselves. And they will discover themselves in their own way, and in their own time.

Your world—the world you see around you—every bit of it is your creation.

You don’t need to save anybody else.

You simply need to recognize your own sovereignty, your own Godness. You need to recognize that you are so much more than this human, and that you are the one and only creator of your reality.

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The human goes, “Great, show me how! Show me how to change my life!”

But that is the human perspective talking. That is the human need for power and for control.

And that is the other thing that happens when you are waking up: You lose control.

You lose control of your life. You lose control of everything.

And dear friend, as terrifying as that is for the human, it is the most beautiful thing! Because it opens you up to your soul’s perspective, to your divine purpose.

It opens the door to magic in your life that you can’t even imagine yet, because it is out of your control. And thank goodness, because your soul can see so much more than you can.

The human can only create more of the same.

The human cannot see into the future. The human looks at the past and tries to project that into the future, with a few minor modifications. It thinks they’re big, but they are actually just minor.

Whereas your soul sees the big picture. It sees what is important, and it knows how to create that.

And when you, the human, finally surrender to the soul, to your soul’s perspective and your divine agendas (that’s a poor word, but we use it for illustration), to your divine knowing, then life becomes magical in a whole new way.

It might still hurt now and then. Things may not work out at all like the human thought they should, but in the end you will look back and see how perfect it was. And more and more, you will see that perfection in the moment. And that is when life becomes magical!

But to get there, you have to let go.

You have to let go of control, and that is the hardest thing for a human.

Well, you could say it is the second hardest thing…

The hardest thing is to fall in love with yourself. Really, truly in love. Not in some egotistical “look how great I am” kind of way, but to truly fall in love with you. To realize your grandness, and how amazing you are. How beautiful you are. How perfect you are, right now!

That’s hard, and that is the key.

That is why we created this amazing class called The New Love. Because that is the key, dear friend. That is the key to everything: to recognize your own beauty and your own grandness.

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Oh, most of you were taught that that is a terrible, evil thing. But that is because all those people could imagine was these narcissistic, egotistical people who try to make themselves feel better by making everyone else smaller. But that is not self-love. That is the opposite of self-love.

That is self-loathing. They feel so horrible about themselves that all they can do is push everybody else down, so that maybe they’re not the lowest. That is self-hate.

Real self-love is so different. Real self-love is about looking in your own eyes and seeing your soul.

Real self-love is about going, “Wow, look at what I have been through! Look at where I have come! I am amazing, just for me!

“And all these other people around me, I can see now how beautiful they are! Even the crazy ones. Even the mean ones and the unkind ones, and the ones who would try to destroy me. I see how beautiful they are too, and how amazing they are!

“I don’t have to let them hurt me anymore, ever again. But I don’t have to destroy them either, because I am the creator of my life. And when I am clear on that, they can’t touch me.”

They might try, and it will come back on them. Because when someone throws power at you and you shrug it off and don’t throw it back, don’t react to it, it comes back on them. Because that is how life works.

That is the thing that has hurt you so much in your lifetimes. It was not the things other people did to you. It was you trying to retaliate, trying to punish them, trying to hurt them back. And that energy always came back on you, because that is how it works.

Anything you push against pushes back, and it always, always, comes back on you.

Now you can see that. Now you can drop those battles, put down your sword, and stop pushing back. And then you become immune to anything they try to do to you.

And more than that, you open a space that they will notice. At some level they will notice something different here. Their human might still try to play its games, but some part of them is noticing and going, “Wow, there’s something new here! I need to pay attention to that!”

And they will. Maybe not so much in this lifetime, but it will change their trajectory through their own process of self-discovery. It will begin the process of them opening up to something new.

So, it’s up to you, but you might want to consider letting those battles go.

And that includes the battles to change yourself, for the same thing works then. You try to push yourself, you try to force yourself, and it always comes back and hits you in a different way.

You think you are addicted to something—cigarettes, alcohol, sex, or a million other things people become addicted to, or think they are addicted to. It’s all just a way to fill that hole inside of yourself that feels so ashamed.

So you try to fix those things. You try to quit smoking, or stop drinking, or whatever it is. You force yourself to stop, and what happens?

Maybe you stop that particular activity, and it just comes out somewhere else, because you haven’t filled the hole inside of you that you are trying to fill. And you cannot fill it through addiction. You cannot fill it through any substance, or any activity.

You can only fill it through self-love. Through wrapping your arms around yourself and making a conscious choice that says, “I am a grand being, and I am okay just the way I am. And I am going to enjoy my life! I am even going to allow myself to enjoy my so-called addictions. I am going to go into it and enjoy it!”

And that is where things can start changing in your life.

Because as long as you are battling with yourself, trying to empower yourself, trying to fix your problems, you are actually destroying yourself. Because those energies always come back on you, and they hurt.

So instead, consider turning the reins over to your soul. Give the driver’s seat to your soul. Surrender to your soul, and simply enjoy life the way it is.

There is always something to enjoy in the moment. No matter how horrible it gets, there is always something you can find to enjoy! Or at least to just go into the experience of it, instead of trying to fix it.

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And then you will begin to discover a whole new you.

It takes patience.

It takes courage.

It takes commitment.

It takes a lot of surrender.

Because things are not going to go the way you think they should.

They are going to go better, if you give them a chance. But along the way, things are going to have to fall away.

Can you let that happen?

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Waking up is hard to do. But it’s unavoidable, and it’s incredible, when you allow it.

And it is a process. It doesn’t get over with overnight.

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As long as you remain on Earth there is a constant tug, because this Earth environment is designed to keep you in the drama, to keep you from remembering your soul, to keep you in these experiences, and it keeps sucking you in.

Oh, John has been finding that out. He keeps thinking he has to do something to get money flowing in his life, and so that is how it works for him: He has to keep doing things, only it’s not working at the moment. Because he knows, as I know, that it is time for a whole different paradigm. Not just for him, but for the whole world, and you are going to see that coming in within a very few years.

The world is going through chaos right now because it is changing. It is changing its very nature and structure.

Human life is changing, and that is why everything feels so weird right now. Because it is all changing and it does not work the way it used to work.

And in a very short time—we know it looks kind of hopeless right now to the people who don’t understand what is happening—but from our perspective, in a very short time, you are going to see a very, very different world taking shape.

And life will no longer be about earning your living. It will be simply about living, and there will be abundance for everyone. In fact, it will not even be a question anymore.

It’s coming, dear friend, very quickly!

So, if you are still here, if you didn’t turn this video off when we suggested it a while ago, then welcome to waking up.

Welcome to being awake!

It is not a sudden thing. People talk about ascension, or realization—this thing the ascended masters went through—and yes, it is very real. But even that is not an instantaneous or momentary thing. There are moments along the way, but it is a continuing evolution.

Realization continues, and continues, really for all of existence. But in particular, as long as you are here on Earth it is a dynamic and constantly evolving process.

So you can fight it, but it will hurt.

You can fight all the things wrong in the world, and that will hurt too. And it will make them bigger, because every time you battle something you feed it.

Oh, you are going to feel outrage at the injustices, at the horrible things people do. And it is time to step back, because every time you fight those things you make them bigger.

Because everything you push, pushes back. Everything!

So step back.

Be the observer.

Allow your soul to show you its perspective, to show you this incredible, beautiful process that these people are going through, of discovering themselves.

And everybody who appears to be their victim chose, on some level, to be part of that, and they too are going through their process of discovering themselves.

And you have been there. You have been the abuser and you have been the abused, the victim, so many times! And that is why you are here now.

That is why you are waking up now with so much wisdom, because you went through those experiences.

So now, can you have enough compassion to let those people go through their experiences, instead of trying to fix them? Instead of trying to fix the world?

The world is taking care of itself, and it will continue to take care of itself. That is not your problem or your concern.

Your concern is finding that love for yourself, because that is the key.

That is the key to everything.

And indeed, we have this beautiful class, this incredible class called The New Love, on our website at fellowshipofdivinehumans.com.

It’s affordable. And it will change your life, if you let it.

It has certainly been changing John’s life, and Romana’s.

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So, open up, dear friend.

Welcome to morning!

Welcome to being awake, after a long sleep with a lot of incredible dreams!

And that is all they were, dear friend. Dreams.

And just like waking up in the morning—ha! You wake up from one of those horrible dreams and it’s such a relief to realize, it was just a dream!

Now you will begin to realize that all of those experiences you thought were so painful, were just dreams.

They were just dreams! That’s all.

And now you can take that deep breath: Ahh… It was just a dream!

You can let go of your swords and your guns and everything you used to battle them with, because they were just dreams.

And even whatever this human life is that you are going through right now, it is just a dream!

And now you are awake within the dream.

But it is still just a dream.

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Open up, dear friend.

Take a deep breath.

Feel your soul breathing with you, as you. Breathing you.

Go look in the mirror, and look into your soul’s eyes.

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Again, if you don’t feel anything, that is just your mind talking.

Imagine it.

Look in the mirror and imagine those are your soul’s eyes looking back at you.

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If you have a question for your soul, just ask. Ask your soul, and then imagine the answer.

Write down the question on a piece of paper, if you want, and then write down what you imagine your soul would answer.

You might be surprised!

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So, until next time,

Blessings!

And so it is.

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