John and Romana, thank you for your class “The New Love”. It came into my life at a time of the most difficult integration experience. I had been in my experience for some time and since almost no one could support me or tell me how to cope, I had to find answers “out of nothing”, within myself. And when this course came along, I had already passed the most acute stage of inner hell and was able to think more clearly about and observe what was going on inside me.

This course for me was something that either 1) clarified what I didn’t yet have clarity on or 2) confirmed what I had been able to come to on my own just weeks or days before the course. And in doing so, gave me peace of mind (because the mind tends to doubt its own conclusions and realisations).

This course became like a friend to me who said: “OK, you’ve made it through the hardest stage of hell, now let’s sit down together and see exactly what you did. And how you should move on with your life so you don’t complicate what needs to be done yet.”

The first few sessions I was resistant, my brain was jumping and irritated, I was constantly distracted and angry. My brain was screaming: “Enough, I’m tired of wallowing in this, how much longer am I going to analyse and think about shame? I’ve been doing this for the last 20 years, it’s enough! I don’t want to!” :-)))) Of course, I realised that this was the resistance of the brain, it is very painful for it to even look at shame. But also I understand and hug my brain, because it’s indeed really tiring, these layers of shame seem to be endless.

Just a few days before this class, I was experiencing new layers of shame in my personal life, which seemed to be absent in me, but suddenly it rose up, and I wrote letters to myself on behalf of the part of me that felt this shame. Such synchronicity in my life is very frequent with your channelings.

Romana’s sessions were also very powerful. They have so much acceptance, tenderness, they lead to acceptance bypassing the brain, they are like a healing river, washing wounds and soothing. They are so pure that at first the brain also resisted them. I could see how the brain was holding on to shame and, at the same time, how unbearable it was for it to look at shame. So these sessions with Romana turned out to be the ultimate love – no explanations, no analysis, just love washing over the exhausted heart and creating space to heal it.

In the second part (sessions 5-8) my brain stopped resisting, and I listened to every word as if it were addressed only to me. I repeat, since I myself am deeply going through this topic in my life, every word had practical meaning for me. I am very glad that the topic of relationships not only with Myself, but also with other people was discussed. Very, very great clarity!

I am delighted with John’s channelings, because for me personally they are very simple and clear, and very concrete, very life-like, very straightforward. They resonate with my inner experience. I remember John’s first channeling, “The Dragon Speaks”. My eyes popped out and I was tearing up inside: “YES! !!!! Yes! That’s what the Dragon is! Yes, this is how I feel it!” Because my personal experience was very different from the pile of makyo I read about the Dragon from some others.

And the 10th session also caused me the big “wow”. The fact is that my experience, my inner wisdom, told me the same thing even though other gurus say the opposite. They say: “Choose this, choose that. You have what you choose. If you don’t like something, just say: I choose to let it go, blah blah blah”.
But I’ve seen through my experience that it’s not a human being who makes this choice, not only, and not so much a human being.

And I could say three hundred times that I was letting go of something, but it didn’t go away instantly. I demanded and proclaimed that “I am ready, I am choosing to let go!” but 1) it just does not go away and 2) trying to let go feels like resisting, like trying to deny because it is too “unbearable” to feel this for so long. So my inner wisdom also said that it will go naturally, when ALL parts of me, including those that I was not aware of, will be ready to let go. And the only way is to be with it.

But our brains are so “designed” that they don’t trust inner wisdom, they rather perceive someone external as an authority. So, even with my wisdom and experience, I often doubted myself and thought that something was wrong with me if I couldn’t “just choose and let go”.

And it so happened that the tenth session was a kind of “wow! John is talking about this too!” and I was relieved, because now it was obvious even to my brain that I was okay and that my brain indeed can trust my inner wisdom.

The most important thing the course has probably given me is the realization that these unpleasant feelings need to be allowed to be. You can’t chase them away. You can’t accelerate their integration. I’ve begun to notice how many strategies there are in me that keep me from just feeling what’s rising, I was constantly trying to change what I was feeling. Even my frustration and fatigue of “how long it’s taking” is also impatience and thinking that these feelings are bad.

What was also important for me in this course was some of the wording of how to talk to yourself. In particularly poignant times, I might not have understood how to address myself, what to say so that it wasn’t just words, but true self support. The way Master Anna articulates them really resonates with me. Great simplicity and clarity.

This class is just wonderful for me! It was very synchronised with what I am currently experiencing in my life, so every word was very meaningful to me and gave me a practical answer, or support, or clarity. Everything made a lot of sense to me personally.